Wow! Been a while huh?

Been about 3 months since I've posted to be exact lol! Things are going a bit smoother now but boy it was a rough ride in the beginning weeks!

For starters, I wasn't as scared as I thought I'd be when I was being escorted into the operating room but once they started my spinal the fright set in. It was a totally different experience going through that while NOT in pain! I felt the needle pressure in my spine and could tell they pulled out and tried another spot after the first didn't work. It sure worked faster than the usual epidural they give you while in labor. My feet and legs up to my knees got hot and numb almost immediately. It was the rest that took a while. As they strapped my arms to the table (which looked like a cross) and began to prep my stomach I was worried because I felt everything! Then they let Jay in, and started pinching my stomach with the clamps to see how numb I was I freaked because I could feel it well! I told my Dr. I still felt it and they started lowering the head of the bed and waited a little bit. When she tried again I was really beginning to worry because I could still feel it even after they lowered the bed and waited a few more times! I felt like my head was almost on the floor and it felt hard to breath, all the while I had visions in my mind of those horror stories of people waking during surgery and feeling everything but not being able to do anything about it lol! Dr. asked if it was a painful pinch and I told her that I could feel it but it didn't hurt so she said she was going to start. I felt them cutting and everything else...it just didn't hurt...talk about creepy eeeeew! Once they cut into my uterus and started moving the baby to get her out I felt like I couldn't breath so they gave me oxygen and told me to pant/breathe as if I was in actual labor. It helped and within minutes they said they had her out but she wasn't crying so I freaked. It seemed like minutes went by before I heard her wail out a huge cry which made me and Jay cry with relief, then joy. Later I found out that the cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times which is why we didn't hear her cry for so long and had she been born vaginally she would have been brain damaged or wouldn't have survived at all!!! Talk about a close call!!!

So anyway, my mom and sister came to visit with the kids and John and Lisa did too. It was great to have them finally see her since they meant so much to me and did so much for us while I was pregnant! I didn't get cards or flowers or anything else for that matter but I could have cared-a-less. I had my perfect baby who I expected to have all sorts of problems after everything we went through during my pregnancy! I DID manage to make Jay feel guilty though so he got me a $300 bottle of champagne that I'm saving for Newyears lol. I can't drink now anyway since I'm breastfeeding so it's just a very nice box to look at 'till then hehe.

After coming home I really missed being in the hospital lol! They were soooooo nice at the Hazleton General and the place was gorgeous! I swear if you're anywhere near there having a baby, you'll regret it if you go elsewhere! I took about a 40 minute drive there just because it was so worth it! I really miss all of the help and reassurance they gave me! The one thing I regret is that they don't give you a pacifier there and I recall getting one while in the hospital for my other two kids. I think for this reason she don't want anything to do with the 7 or 8 different kinds I've had Jay go out and get up to now lol! Trust me, I know the pros and cons of giving one and at this point there are more cons in my case but she just won't do anything more than chew on them and then get pissed and spit it out. Sometimes I just need a break and sometimes

she just wants something to suck on so if she had taken one from the beginning I wouldn't have gotten so sore but that's another story lol.

Anyway, she's here, she's beautiful and she's growing like a weed! She babbles and coos at me like a pro and she's been trying to hold her heavy noggin' up since the first week so I have a feeling she's older than we thought lol. I'll try to update here more often but I have a feeling with her eating hourly still I'll only have time to update pics and post a few words here and there lol...we'll see ;)